?Chaos?UsedieBash?

the run away pain,
to hide away.
show me your pretty face.
alcholic parents dont do well.
you went through all the abuse.
but i feel that you are still near me.
levating hearts. dont do well
i want you to come back to me.

ohhh my fading memories of you.
at christmas eve.
i see you helping me.
i fell to tears.
as soon i hear
your fading voice in my ear.

levating hearts. dont do well
i want you to come back to me.
dear god keep her close.
have shaking thoughts of you haley.
i feel you in our souls.
the days of pain
wordering where you are.
you went through all the abuse.
but i feel that you are still near me.

ohhh my fading memories of you.
at christmas eve.
i see you helping me.
i fell to tears.
as soon i hear
your fading voice in my ear.
i look back at our day together.
i havent saw you sense november.
at age 9 to 10.
now i hear sad things about you.
that i never wish that came.

the day i wish to see your face.
the run away pain,
to hide away.
just give me a say.
i will save the day.
i will treasure that day
 i see your face again.

memories of you haley.
memories of you haley.
just give me a say.
i will save the day.

i dont wanna see
a beauitful pale face.
of a dead soul.
i wanna have more memories

i see that you are gone.
but i still need the deadly sins.
your eyes are every sin.
they move with everything.
they mezmerize me..
hold on to your own eyes they
might run away to vegas.
to be a show dancer.

whats wroung with you.
every moement we had.
we dont let go.
lust i see is one to be.
envy in me.
shows the fake trust.
that you play.
but i still need the deadly sins.
they mezmerize sins in everyone else.

scared of you.
it so hard to go.
glue, wax is holding
me tight in the mezmerizing
eyes. "of a stranger"
run away to vegas.

welcome to your hometown.
"Welcome to your hometowN."

my feelings are running out.
to be a show dancer
every moement we had.
never lived again.
you get everyone wrapped
around your finger.
the feelings of you having real
wax in your eyes make me
stick.

welcome to your silly hometown.
"Welcome to your gabbeling hometowN"

vegas eyes ["baby"]
VEGAS EYES
when i met you.
the innocentness was there.
now you think that you can
get everyone.
meeting the vegas eyes
bring me back to you!!

baby vegas eyes are cold baby.

life is hard to live for
19 years and no one
understands you.
all the painfull liveing.
and to count it in
the father was hardly there
for the son.

growing up
breaking things.
wanting to kill yourself
when your friends
dont understand.
doctors say you
have prolblems.
all the abuse to
other people.

you feel like
your going
fucking crazy.
people say things
that make it worse.
dont ever want to talk
to anyone.
but one day you will
break down and really fell
what you think.

you show the abuse
to everyone else.
hurting yourself
thinking its
better.
[[SCREAMS]]

having other
people talk to him about
it.. would be worse
you will not know
whats wrong.
lets just talk.
with out yelling.

i understand you,
hearing you cry ..
makes me cry.
we are strong.
 we will make it
through the day..
no one understands
him as what he thinks.
but i do.

you hurt hearts
but make mine strong
and yours will be even
stronger because you
are going through it.
hurting yourself
thinking its
better.
[[SCREAMS]]

while my thoughts where
saying hey on
 the outside
i believe you.
i feel the
same as you.
you feel like
your going
fucking crazy.

i wanna run way
to where life is beautiful.
i wonder if you think of
 me when i think of you.
sense the day
i met you
i thought of you.

im tring to
forget about it all.
i never want to do
this again.
i heard you where doing
okay.

i write to you in my mind
wishing you
loved me back.
i wrote and read to
the end of the bottle.
i have no where to run.

do you ever feel left out.
well come here.
we can be on the
 other side.
i feel lost when.
im in the darkside.
no one is here
 to save us..
we have to run.

it is 5 a.m in here.
till the time of 6 pm
we can leave.
i dont want to here you
say it. i want to figure
it out here.we see you

you see me.
you qoute it.
you want it.
we say things
about you.
but all the
things about you.

we blame it on aything
but oursevles.
from running
down the path.
my mind hurts.
we are sympathy.

when i wake up and it
will never be the same .
i dont want to think
of you..

you always lied
to me.
you say its all a
joke.
but she believes
 that its true.
i hate to
bring it all
up.

we all hide
behind the lies that
come up.
[hide]]

i cant believed
you did this.
but you are like this.
but it scars me..
always lieing
could hurt your heart.
it will strangle you.
and ill be happy to help you..

there is no way ill let
you do this.
all the trash and
llies.
you always lied
to me.
it will strangle you
i will say i hide its fast but
the way you do it all.
its hard to trust
someone like that..
fucking ill do it for free

i love you you and
 the words
go that way,
always.
but my words are true.
as much as i will

be here for you.
your clues could be
so much hard,
her lies.
are beneath her eyes.

im not here for all
the FUCKING FAKE
ASS MUTHER FUCKERS.
im here for
the real person
the one who
gets me all the way.

give it all a chance.
it may hurt you.
it makes everyone a better
persone in the way they love..

i never thought it could..
kill me..
but i couldn't wait.. yeah.
the heavens above me where
at war.but ill learn our way..

the heavens why dont you
fucking kill me?
besides of scaring
everyone around,
just to show me that.
my death is now.
i will learn my way.
take my hand.
lead the FUCKING WAY.

you tried to steal
my heart, and soul.
just kill me.
if your not here.
why should i fucking stay.
i never knew you where
like that.
the thoughts of you
stealing it all away

tell me.
kill me.
FUCKING NOW!!!
the heaven.[heaven]
i never thought it could..
kill me..
but i couldn't wait
for it to show..
IM TRING TO TELl  YOU.
fucking ill kill you.

i will believe
that you where
my love.
i fucking had
nervous smiles.
and your
shaking hands.
scare yourself.
ill do it myself.

the bolts of
your hands.
the rain of both tears.
we fell fast alsleep.
YOUR MY FUCKING LIAR..
[[background, KILL ME KILL ME KILL ME]

we can lie untill the end.
the end of the world.
i knew you shot it in
my heart.
but ill say it for you.
i feel like a teenage dream.
that has been eatin alive.

i want you so badly.
that i would lie untill the
end to be with you.
tell me all your dirty lies..
and ill make more.
tell the end.

we hide away in our
secert place.
and tell untill the end.
untill the sun gose out.
on us where we now live.
is it our time to say good bye and
say the truth.
the time of truth really hurts.

we like all the lies of nice.
truth hurts but we have to hear it..
all untill the end.
every one says it .
we are still alive in one
today.

it is all night
 the sun has been eatin alive .
by our souls is sadden .
the truth will be "TOLD"
how ever it will be "OPENED"
my heart has been "SOLD"
you are broken and it all fades to black.
like the sorrow night.
that i live in.

sundenly all
you can tell about you
are your finger prints.
you changed.
all we know is
that you where so sweet.
now its changed.

you think you can have everyone do
your own work for you.
your own work.
it seems we are under
command of the president.
its just the fake you
hiding behind your face
i fall to the grown
like the bad movie.

i see your fake name in
lights.
i think of your real name
and the real you.
not all the lies you had behind

what happend.
we where so close and you became
the worsed person i ever loved
and it all come down to this
you think you can beat the groups
along the way.
you have to stop.

your wasting yourself away.
its hard to see. .
i taste the flavor
of your lips. you really
have changed by them.
the town has nere remebered
you but i do.i see the real you.
the town has been spinning around in circles.
[around circles]

the sound of the old man
sleeping at home.
while the wife is out playing around.
we stay true all night long.
we know in our heads that.
it is all very funny.

snow is a pretty site.
sand is.. warmth beneath
your eyes.
cold trimbles away to where
you know what is going to happen.
heat is a never ending fantacy.
you never know what is going
to shoot out at you.

the city is taking over..
nightlife has got a hold.
of you.
hold on tight,
lets leave this place
for more dreams.
we all know the city is
the place for big stars.
but lets start a new thing.

she is still going around
getting high all the time.
while her old man is in dread
and still snoring.
he has no clue on her behalf.

we are the pain holders.
lets leave this awefull place.
no one will know.
they are being part of the
nightlife. and attending his
big wanna be old man dreams.
we can make it there.

checkk. yess
[[noise of trash crumbleing}}

show me the way
to our real heart beats.
no one ever believed us.
the ocean has past along
the way.lead the way..
they will never understand

look me in a cold stare
and trust me.the followers
path never took place.
dont look at the reflaction
you dont want to see the past.
lets just leave the moon.

i know people give you the
glare.  what do you say..
if you care enough we will not care.
we are turning back to follow along.
lets leave the palce that is
hurting us. lets not be followers
we can be leaders.

the tune of our hearts
beat and yours is fast and
mine is slow. why
show me the way
to our real heart beats.
no one ever believed us.
the ocean has past along
the way.lead the way..
 
let me see the real you.
look me in a reall stare.
hands shake. taste me girl
 on the lips...
the followers
path never took place.
dont look at the reflaction
you dont want to see the past.
lets just leave the moon.

the water is touching us..
we have been here all night.
and the tide
is moveing.
is it telling us we are not ment to be
 together.
lets move along
leave me one touch.

[[feed back of guitar]]
whooaaa whaaoo

im going to start writting my

songs that i write my self in these journals

soo if you read this read all my songs and

tell me what you think.

and i have like over 30 songs in my song book

and when im on the computar and i have nothing to do

 i write some amazing songs..

soo these songs on here i need to store just came off the top of my mind...

and i cant write them down in my books any morei have no more room and

its to hard to write something that has already been wrote.soo im putting them on here..

soo check them out and tell me what you think so far i have one and thats it but trust me there will

be more no matter what..

i love you guys

my life is all put into this and
i know you are to..
do you know that how this will end..
miles and miles are nothing to
us..but we are in love.



hahhaa..
take a breath and look at me
it never was easy..
chills us down..
soo make me turn
off ,and listen
to the rain
and the poud of our heart beats.



lets just be here
and feel over again so
we know every curve thats
in our bodies.




the little kisses
make a move
like an earthquke .

that is creeping up on the earth.

do you know that how this will end..
miles and miles are nothing to
us..but we are in love.

just turn around and
feel me to..
i wont forget about you
haahaa

tons of years
of this moement
and we get it.


the thought of the way
we would do.
is so amazing.

the miles mean nothing its
our hearts that feel
eachother in
every way..

soo make me turn
off ,and listen
to the rain
and the poud of our heart beats
just turn around and
feel me to..
i wont forget about you
jump on the bed
and spin around and
touch..

mason is my love i would do anything for my sweet guy and he is the sweetest thing in the world and just talking to him he is so nice and i love himm.. just like my shannon she loves trace and she is his fan girl slave and im masons i love himm and just thinking of my man getting hurt it makes me cry..

 i          love you mason